may mga bagay na di mo na mababalik.. sabi nga nila YOU CANT HAVE THE SAME THING TWICE. darating ka nalang sa point ng buhay mo na masasabi mo “sana di ko nalang ginawa or sana innenjoy ko nalang” pero ganun ang buhay eh. minsan sa buhay natin magkakaron tau ng regrets pero at least natuto ka..
i realized last night kung gaano kasimple yung buhay ko dati.. yung tipong school-bahay lang. kakain man sa labas, si ems or family lang yung kasama ko. yung tipong concentrated lang ako sa pagiging scholar. yung tipong pagkakita ng grade at top 1 sa klase o di kaya eh 90 and above ung grade ko, may reward ako from my parents at kay ems. yung tipong uuwi ako ng bahay nakahain na si ems ng masarap na ulam tapos kakain nalang. pinakamasarap pa eh yung ipinagluluto niya ako ng paburito kong bacon kahit mahal o di kaya kahit na anong may sabaw. yung bang after kumain manonood lang kami ng movies kasi alam niyang paburito manood ng movies lalo pag romantic comedy, comedy, horror o kaya suspense o anything na may moral lesson. yung sa kakapanood nakakatulog na ako sa sofa tapos bubuhatin nalang niya ako from sofa to bed. yung every Sunday, umaattend kami ng mass tapos magtitirik ng dalawang kandila pero pinagdikit tapos babasahin ung prepared prayer sa harap ni St. Peter o ni Sto. Nino. tapos kakain sa KFC o sa Jollibee tapos manonood.ng sine. yung mga panahong nag aaral pa kami pareho ni ems tapos ako tagarewrite ng nursing report nia sa index card o sa notebook niya tapos sya nagreresearch ng assignment ko. yung di kami matutulog hanggat di pa tapos ung project o homework ko. ung sa umaga nagluluto sya ng bfast ko tapos nireready nia na paligo ko. yung kapag tinamad kami magpalaundry sa labas, naglalaba kami together. yung pagkauwi niya mula sa review for board exam, madadatnan nia ako sa harap ng PC at marunong ng maglaro ng Battle Realms, Dota.at NFS o di kaya naglalaro ako ng Plants Vs Zombies o Text twist. yung si ems lang ung tanging trinatrust ko, yung kapag mataas ung score ko, super excited ako umuwi at ipakita ke ems at knila mama ung quiz, homework or exam ko. yung hindi ako matutulog na wala ung teddybear ko na bigay ni ems.. ung nag aargue kami sa pagiging righteous ko pero at the end of the day, nagtethank u sya kasi ako ung gf nia
andami dami ng nagbago. i realized that when i lost my boyfriend, i lost my bestfriend too. a lot had flabbergastedly reacted on our separation. pero ganun talaga siguro. :) things happen for a reason. i may miss all these stuffs and i may not find any guy like him na pero i am so thankful kasi i had 4 meaningful and preious years with him.
Ang hirap pala nung may namimiss ka pero di mo masabi kasi baka di ka naman niya namimiss. Ang sakit nung mahal mo pa rin siya kahit baka di ka na niya mahal. Ang hirap nung gusto mo siyang makita pero di pwede. Nakakainis dahil nasasaktan ka kahit di na dapat. Nakakaiyak yung gustong gusto mo pa rin siya kahit di mo alam kung ganun pa rin siya sayo. Ang hirap hirap nung gusto mo siyang kausapin pero di mo magawa kasi naghohold back ka dahil baka di na tulad ng dati at masaktan ka lalo kung ayaw ka na niyang replyan. Pinakamahirap yung umaasa ka pa rin na balang araw babalik lahat ng meron kayo. I so miss him :’(
*insert name here* went from being “In a relationship” to “Single”. Sabay may drawing ng isang maliit na puso sa dulo.
Isa sa mga post na lintik kung makatawag ng atensyon. Lalo na kung kilala mo ang taong yun at ang jowa niya. Tipong sumikat ang love team nila dahil sa maka-diabetes na…
Relate much hihi
June 30, 2013
Dear em em,
Right now that i am writing this for u, though i dont even know if you’ll ever read this, you are sleeping tightly on the bed and hugging a dirty pillow.
Its been a tough day the day before yesterday. We had a fight because i made some mistake and you got mad at me. I felt like an errant child that time-that time when you scolded me like you were a nagging mother.
I was so pissed that night. You, shouting at me and bringing up past issues, saying that im a burden to you and that i dont even know how to pay back some gratitude to everything you’ve done for me wounded me. Do you know how it made me feel while hearing those things? I felt like i want to leave and take some fresh air. It swollen my throat that all i can do is cry in the corner of the bed. And while i’m doing that you were like a stranger who would hurt me if i wont stop crying. You scared me and brought me back to the memory when my father frightened me and hurt me one time he’s drunk which was the reason why i ran away from home 4 years ago.
I said sorry through text message and you said sorry too. We tried to talk but there you were again, mad and didnt want to hear what i wanted to say. You always thought that i defy you. You always think that i think im the only person hurt-and-right everytime we argue and fight. when in fact, we both hurt each other. i hurt you and i was aware of that. but before i can even make it up to you, you say things i never have imagine you telling me. I hurt you by doing mistakes i didnt even want and intend to do and you hurt me by being always mad, shouting at me,cursing me and telling me that im always a burden to you. Don’t i make you happy? Do i always make you feel like you are carrying a crux? If i do, i am sorry. I never intended to make you feel that way. In fact i always want you to be happy.
You said, you wanted to stay home and help your parents. You said im the only reason why you’re here. That i dont even know how to pay you back for that.-that i dont even think of how much you’ve sacrificed for me.Yes, i took that negatively. It’s as if you are telling me that i owe you for that. Yes. I owe you for that but do you really have to bring that out? I mean, do you really have to throw that up right into my face? So, to make it up to you i texted mom to tell her i wanted to live alone. And you thought i was selfish again for doing that. That i’m the one throwing things out-everything we’ve gone through. I feel like i’ve never done anything right.
Then yesterday when you came home, i thought we were already okay. I realized i was emotional blocked out. I thought i needed some air and space but all i need is you, you being okay. You being nice.i am really sounding stupid right at this moment, but it’s the fact. I knew i was so impatient. It is just that we are changing. And its kinda hard to handle that we, we both are changing. Its just that you wanted this and i wanted that. i hang, slowdown and even forget things and i’m really sorry for that. I even don’t know why i am becoming like that sometimes. But you, you are so hot-tempered, control freak, nagger and monster to me. Now a days we dont meet at common points. Let’s accept that.
You also told me that i should wake up to reality that there’s no perfect relationship. I am aware of that and i am not asking for a perfect one. I was just asking for a happy one. You dont give me flowers, i understand. For practicality purposes, tshirts are more useful than flowers. But you know sometimes you have to show a girl that she’s a precious one. That she’s more than a shirt. That she deserve romance. And there, you compare it into a son-showing-his-gf-to-his-family. You cant back out. That if you started giving me flowers, you wont stop doing that.And you gave me hope by just telling me that. The thing is, how long will i wait? Another 4years? I hope not.
You are one hell of a confusing man. sometimes,i really dont know how to deal with you already. But you know, i still love you. Even if i tell you that i dont want any of you already, i still love you. Unless you are not physically hurting me, i will stick by you, because i love you and we will both deal with changes and our issues together. I know its kinda hard this time but if we will be both stable with finance i know things will change. I know we will be better than now. Just hang on.okay?
Matthew Albanese creates small-scale meticulously detailed models of outdoor scenes and landscapes using everyday, simple, mundane materials and transform them into an image through the lens of his camera making them look hyper-realistic.
Are you fucking kidding me?
Ang galing naman nito!!!