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Dear my parents,

When I go home a little late, It’s just that me and my friends had fun. Talking, eating and just playing around. Me, going home late doesn’t mean that I went on a date, took drugs or smoked my lung out. No. Purely had fun. I’m not one of those kids who will lie about going out. As much as possible I don’t want to ruin your trust. I am your daughter and I will always abide your rules because I love you very much. Please put your trust in me, ‘cause I know my limitations. I don’t want you to worry also. I am not easily influenced by people. I have my own mind, and I know what’s best for me.

quoted from a friend’s post. haha i love it!. mom, dad i also wanna tell this to you. i know ive gained your trust and since ive started college, never did you scold me from my going-out-habits and im grateful for that :))

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this is such a revelation,.

aww i can accept verbal abuse, but physical? damn NO!! i always pray to God that whatever fight my bf and i would have, bf would not hurt me physically. it would be so painful and belittling to be abused physically. it consumes all the self-esteem and respects a person/woman has for herself.

damn, i cried for Ai-Ai.. ill pray for her. :(

PURPLE

It was a night full of purple

Honestly, i havent entered any pub yet until one of my friend was invited to party and yes you are right, it was at PURPLE. Well i was about to disagree. First because i dont have an experience-i dont want to go into details. Second, i really dont drink. Third, i know my boyfriend and my parents wont like it. But then again i have no choice.I HAVE NO CHOICE.

Tuesday afternoon, me and Princess Tambogon(my bestfriend) met her guy bestfriend, Enric and his partner to have a coffee at Zola.Enric’s partner left before we even reached the place. Oh Enric’s a gay. After 2 rounds of coffee, we decided to leave and go to CROWN LEGACY as we were invited to the opening of Legacy’s bar-well it looks like a fine dining restau than of a bar! They had a drink and i didnt, i dont like SanMigLight. It tastes bitter and effects fast. I just sat there, a bit dizzy because of the coffee. After an hour, we decided to go home.

As we reached Princess’ apartment where i also stay, i curled my hair While Princess and Enric cooked the dinner. As usual its as delicious as before!

The three of us were excited for Purple. Princess and i had Margaux’s hair(Margaux of one of the Philippine Teleserye). I was in black polka blouse,jeans and my shining shimmering bobs while Princess was on her peach sleeveless blouse, black toppers, jeans and black wedge, and Enric’s in his maong polo,jeans and world Balance shoes. Make ups on. Fresh. Sexy and undeniably excited! Took some pictures and already head to Purple.

“Left Hand ma’am” the receptionist at the entrance said as she marked the stamp at my wrist. Its a sign that i can move in and out of the bar. “So this is it”,i told myself. I held Princess hand so i wont be lost. So many people, lights are blinking, and the party music’s real loud. “Put your hands up in the air!put your hands up in the air!”, The dj sang as we moved to the counter to get our free drinks. Delicious as ever,San Mig Apple was our choice. Enric and i stood at the counter, observing. The beat of the light plus the party music, oh damn!it makes the place so evil. So suffocating. Princess went up with some friends but i stayed at the counter with Enric,still standing and enjoying our drink. after a while, i noticed 3guys coming infront of me, i didnt mind looking straight to them, they ordered SM apple, i know they were trippin so i pushed Enric to move a lil bit. they were on my side. After maybe 30secs, a bottle fell beside my right foot. I rolled my eyes at them and sip the rest of my drink. Princess went down and we decided to go out. We met Basty, a classmate before and Chelo.they were fun! We got inside, they ordered drinks and boom! Its now a real pArty. We danced to the beat of the sounds! Sexy dances. Hands up! Hips to the left right left right chin’s up and lips singing the song! Flabbergastedly enjoyed the moment until Princess whispered,”someone held my butt” and i straightly looked at the guys at her back. I told her not to mind them and so party again. Princess was stunning that night! She danced pretty as well cheering for me to do more and i did as she cheered.

Dance. Sing. Make some noice. no one sees you. Just enjoy!- my heart said. And i followed my heart.

It was worth the experience. I really enjoyed dancing. PURPLE IS INDEED AMAZING! It turns people wild and sexy. And i succeeded! No one disrespected me. no one touched my butt. I enjoyed!

My two bestfriends. Hihi

Throwback wednesday! Enjoying free time with princess, charm and joyjoy. Hihi.i Really love that #SilverSurfer at the #treeTopAdventure of #campJohnHay #love #happiness #bonding #friendship

Depression

i am in the corner of my room. wanting to cry out loud. wanting to burst. wanting to shout. wanting to tell you how i really feel. it hurts so much that i dont even know what to say, how to react;thinking laughing would compensate every tear that rolled down my face.

how could this be happening.

Trust and forgiveness

Forgiveness. Why is it so hard to forgive? Why is so hard to see the person who hurt you? Why is it so hard to trust again? What’s taking it so long to repent and to be forgiven; to forget and to forgive?

sometimes, you’ve trusted too much:thinking all the people you’ve trusted were worth your trust;that these people would never hurt you. That they would always choose to tell the truth than cheat;that they would never let you suffer things you dont deserve. And at the end, the one who trusted much, suffered more(Being cheated,disappointed and hurt.)

How can life be so cruel. How can there be people who give another chance,and chance and chance and a lot of chances.

And why are there people who cheat and hurt again after being given another chance.how can they be so rude to break anoTher promise and heart that were once being broken?

there are a lot of why’s and how’s. But the clue is never to give your full trust because even the people you thought you already know can break you as how a dog bites a man who took good care of him.

Grateful for my relationship with boyfriend

I am so thankful to God that he had given me this kind of relationship. Yes, it’s not perfect. It’s not like what everybody would dream of. But at least it is a relationship which is worth keeping for.

I’ve been in love to the same guy for 4years and 3days.(longest relationship i had ever have) I could proudly say that i am a keeper and a lover as well as he is. It is not only me but it’s the 2 of us who’s striving hard to keep this relationship work. To make it strong and worth it.

Honestly it feels so strange! It is not the typical feeling of inlove, kilig and happiness. It is like i am dreaming of already walking in the aisle, with tears as i slowly stretch my lips to smile. It is like i wanted to always thank God for making me feel loved and cared about.

The first time that i met him, i know that i wanted to be with him, to love him and be loved by him, but i never thought it would reach us this far. *tears*

There are a lot of cries, arguments and fights of who’s right and who’s wrong;of who loves more and who loves less;of who exerts more efforts and who’s less..But now, i realized, it really doesnt matter of who’s more and who’s less. It is about give and take, compliment and compensation.

I learned that sometimes, i need to be jealoused to make him feel and to assure him that i am deeply in love with him. Well, its normal. It is just that i dont want to be paranoid thinking of what he does whenever we’re not together, because if i do, i would deprive him of his right to meet new ladies and be friended with them. I dont want that to happen.

It’s also more than a year since we started LONG DISTANCE RELATIONSHIP. It was really hard at the beginning. Seeing him every 2-3weeks really helped in compensating the moments that we should be together giggling and cuddling. We never get used to it, actually.noone between the 2 of us get used to pain everytime i leave him or he leaves me either.i cant still control myself from crying,tho he says things to prevent me from being upset.Now, we still keep our love track. one secret maybe to survive this relationship is to always keep in mind that the distance would help us know how precious we are to each other and would let our love deepens itself. It taught us to be excited and to wait.that waiting makes things worthy.

People are right, love is not enough. A strong relationship requires love, faith, trust and respect then everything will follow. Maybe that’s what we have. Maybe that’s the reason why we still love to sleep on each others side.

I know fate? Destiny? Or whatever brought us to each other, works!